I started to get better once I began to understand what had happened to me. It's awesome that you are already aware of your coping habits, how it's affecting you, and what you are trying to avoid. It took me a long time to realize I had even been affected by trauma, and it took even longer to realize how I was coping.
The book 'The Body Keeps the Score' that showed up recently on here[1] has been immensely helpful for me. It explains all of the changes your body and mind go through after trauma. Before reading that book I tried to treat the symptoms and it didn't work. I also didn't realize that a lot of the things I was dealing with were really symptoms of underlying trauma. Reading the book is hard (there are lots of stories of other people's trauma that can be triggering) and I cry a lot and need to take a break to self soothe but it's been my roadmap to getting through this. This is the first paragraph of chapter 13, when the book finally explains how to heal:
> What has happened cannot be undone. But what can be dealt with are the imprints of trauma on body, mind, and soul: the crushing sensations in your chest that you may label as anxiety or depression; the fear of losing control; always being on alert for danger or rejection; the self-loathing; the nightmares and flashbacks; the fog that keeps you from staying on task and from engaging fully in what you are doing; being unable to fully open your heart to another human being.
> Trauma robs you of the feeling of being in charge of yourself...The challenge of recovery is to reestablish ownership of your body and mind--of your self. This means feeling free to know what you know and to feel what you feel without becoming overwhelmed, enraged, ashamed, or collapsed. For most people this involves 1.) finding a way to become calm and focused 2.) learning to maintain that calm in response to images, thoughts, sounds, or physical sensations that remind you of the past, 3.) finding a way to be fully alive in the present and engaged with the people around you, 4.) not having to keep secrets from yourself, including secrets about the ways that you have managed to survive.
For 1.) yoga and meditation have been really helpful for me. Both yoga and meditation have been clinically proven to help PTSD sufferers. For meditation I enjoy using the Headspace app. I've mostly been doing yoga with Youtube videos by 'Yoga with Adriene'. I would suggest starting with the video 'Yoga For Post Traumatic Stress' or the 'Dedicate 30 day Yoga Journey'. All you need is a mat. I've started going to in person yoga classes and it's been really nice but I did yoga on my own for about a month beforehand.
For 2.) I've been learning how to 'ground' which is essentially mindfulness with a focus on your touch points (your feet on the floor, your butt in the chair, etc). The breathwork from yoga and meditation is also super hepful. Your breath is one of the few things under both conscious and autonomic control so you can use it to tap into the part of your body that is losing it when you're triggered.
3.) comes back to mindfulness, and again yoga and meditation are really helpful. After experiencing trauma I started to disassociate all the time. Now I can usually notice when it starts and check back in with myself.
For 4.) therapy, journaling, and self help books have been helpful for me. I would suggest trying multiple therapists until you find one you like. The consensus seems to be that you eventually need to revisit trauma to move past it, but you don't want to do that until you have the tools to revisit it without reliving it. You might be able to do that on your own but I feel a lot safer doing that with a trained professional. I've also realized that the stuff I am dealing with is a little too intense to expect a friend or partner to deal with so my choices are either journaling or therapy.
As I've worked on those 4 things the hold of addictive behaviors and coping mechanisms has started to loosen. It's easier to not drink when I'm actually comfortable being in my own skin and feeling what I feel. I still compulsively check my phone sometimes but I try to acknowledge what I'm doing and ask myself what need I'm trying to fulfill when I do it.
If you build the dome tall enough it isn't really an issue. My dome is a 20' diameter 5/8 dome and my head will only touch if I am standing 4" away from the wall.
Each of the 15 sides is around 4' long on a 20' dome so you can put square furniture against the side if it isn't over 4' long. It is a problem with long furniture. I have an 8' long counter and I drop stuff behind it all the time.
Interesting how these objections are mostly about how domes don’t fit well into existing industrial supply chains and building codes which were designed around more conventional box shapes. That is, many of the problems are not with domes per se but rather with their inability to integrate well with a culture that wasn’t expecting them.
I’ve found the same to be true of many aspects of human culture and engineering: we stick to conventions often not because they are inherently better reasoning from first principles, but just because they are conventions. This makes the whole society more efficient, but also has a way of shutting down novel ideas and experimentation.
Preference for rectangles, boxes, and square grids is (in particular) one of the most deeply entrenched of our cultural conventions, very difficult to displace. We use them for basic measurement, architecture, construction, city planning, cartography, textiles, industrial design, packaging, visual art, basic instruction in math and physics, books, circuit board and microchip layout, seating arrangements, camera sensors, computer displays, and on and on...
Most of those problems are associated with small domes. As domes get larger, the edges get closer to straight and many of those problems go away.
Large domes are usually built with only the top third of a sphere or less. This generates huge outward stresses at the base, so there's a steel ring in tension to support them. This works fine. Often the outer walls are raised, so the dome doesn't go all the way down to the ground. This allows roofing a big area with a sturdy structure.
Syufy Theaters built many domed theaters around Silicon Valley. The original ones were radial, not geodesic - radial beams tied together by ring beams. The Houston Astrodome is a similar design. Although vacant and unmaintained, the Astrodome is holding up well. Later Syufy went with octagonal buildings, such as the Century Cinemas next to Google HQ. This kept their round branding, but allowed better subdividing into multiplexes.
This is my first week back on Linux after using OSX for ~4 years. I switched because it's cheaper. I needed more power and building a Linux desktop is way cheaper than buying Mac hardware.
So far: KDE is incredibly nice. I'm pretty blown away. Aesthetically I actually like it more than Aqua. The file manager is nice, the terminal is fine, there is a spotlight style search, virtual desktops, pretty much everything I would miss moving from OSX.
I miss 1Password the most. Right now I'm using a CLI client (passcards) to access my 1Password vault. I haven't setup notes yet but it seems like there are decent Notational Velocity alternatives. Relearning muscle memory to use CTRL instead of CMD is painful. I'm wasting a lot of time tweaking keyboard shortcuts.
Interesting. So for you the change was on desktop, not laptops.
What changed you mind wrt price? I wasn't under the impression that apple computers have gotten more expensive than they were before?
Nice, it reminds me of Ken Isaacs. He designed free standing living structures with movable pallets so they could be reconfigured and plywood skins for privacy. You can read his book online [https://issuu.com/golfstromen/docs/ken-isaacs-1974] since it's out of print.
The book 'The Body Keeps the Score' that showed up recently on here[1] has been immensely helpful for me. It explains all of the changes your body and mind go through after trauma. Before reading that book I tried to treat the symptoms and it didn't work. I also didn't realize that a lot of the things I was dealing with were really symptoms of underlying trauma. Reading the book is hard (there are lots of stories of other people's trauma that can be triggering) and I cry a lot and need to take a break to self soothe but it's been my roadmap to getting through this. This is the first paragraph of chapter 13, when the book finally explains how to heal:
> What has happened cannot be undone. But what can be dealt with are the imprints of trauma on body, mind, and soul: the crushing sensations in your chest that you may label as anxiety or depression; the fear of losing control; always being on alert for danger or rejection; the self-loathing; the nightmares and flashbacks; the fog that keeps you from staying on task and from engaging fully in what you are doing; being unable to fully open your heart to another human being.
> Trauma robs you of the feeling of being in charge of yourself...The challenge of recovery is to reestablish ownership of your body and mind--of your self. This means feeling free to know what you know and to feel what you feel without becoming overwhelmed, enraged, ashamed, or collapsed. For most people this involves 1.) finding a way to become calm and focused 2.) learning to maintain that calm in response to images, thoughts, sounds, or physical sensations that remind you of the past, 3.) finding a way to be fully alive in the present and engaged with the people around you, 4.) not having to keep secrets from yourself, including secrets about the ways that you have managed to survive.
For 1.) yoga and meditation have been really helpful for me. Both yoga and meditation have been clinically proven to help PTSD sufferers. For meditation I enjoy using the Headspace app. I've mostly been doing yoga with Youtube videos by 'Yoga with Adriene'. I would suggest starting with the video 'Yoga For Post Traumatic Stress' or the 'Dedicate 30 day Yoga Journey'. All you need is a mat. I've started going to in person yoga classes and it's been really nice but I did yoga on my own for about a month beforehand.
For 2.) I've been learning how to 'ground' which is essentially mindfulness with a focus on your touch points (your feet on the floor, your butt in the chair, etc). The breathwork from yoga and meditation is also super hepful. Your breath is one of the few things under both conscious and autonomic control so you can use it to tap into the part of your body that is losing it when you're triggered.
3.) comes back to mindfulness, and again yoga and meditation are really helpful. After experiencing trauma I started to disassociate all the time. Now I can usually notice when it starts and check back in with myself.
For 4.) therapy, journaling, and self help books have been helpful for me. I would suggest trying multiple therapists until you find one you like. The consensus seems to be that you eventually need to revisit trauma to move past it, but you don't want to do that until you have the tools to revisit it without reliving it. You might be able to do that on your own but I feel a lot safer doing that with a trained professional. I've also realized that the stuff I am dealing with is a little too intense to expect a friend or partner to deal with so my choices are either journaling or therapy.
As I've worked on those 4 things the hold of addictive behaviors and coping mechanisms has started to loosen. It's easier to not drink when I'm actually comfortable being in my own skin and feeling what I feel. I still compulsively check my phone sometimes but I try to acknowledge what I'm doing and ask myself what need I'm trying to fulfill when I do it.
[1] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=21340636