You basically need to re-evaluate what gives you "purpose". For me it would be leaving tech and doing something else for a time; anything from janitorial work to welding to carpentry or ideally something outdoors (nursery?). One thing I thoroughly enjoy doing is volunteer work. I helped build houses for Habitat for Humanity and it was extremely fulfilling. I think if you have the opportunity to work part-time and retain your health insurance, find something you'd be interested in volunteering for that would give you that sense of purpose again.