To me it sounds that you've put your career first, and now that you've essentially beaten that game you're lost on what to do next. A lot of engineers switch to doing other things they like, an ex Microsoft dev made their own winery using their skills. A number of them just work on pet projects. Or a lot of people transition more into their community. - is there a high school or people to mentor? In education especially in rural areas it's hard to come by people with experience.

Travel, meet people, enjoy good food, do drift racing, life is what you want out of it.