I sorted my life out in my mid-30s. Still divorced and single, which is scary as I push 40, but everything is on an unshakable upward track.
You are in a wonderful position, and a tough one. What's tougher than feeling sandbagged by your own psyche? What's better than not being an addict who's hurt everyone that matters to you? Well done having savings from over a decade ago, that is exceptional.
You are far from alone. Lots of people feel stuck, over the hill, like they have unique and unhelp-able problems.
Everyone else has already suggested getting a therapist; it's a real project to find the person (person, not school of thought) right for you, but worthwhile. If you can learn how to meditate (stick to the traditions imo), many people find therapy + meditation a great one-two punch combo. Maybe the best. A mushroom trip might help.
Thank you for the work you've already started, and best of luck.
You are in a wonderful position, and a tough one. What's tougher than feeling sandbagged by your own psyche? What's better than not being an addict who's hurt everyone that matters to you? Well done having savings from over a decade ago, that is exceptional.
You are far from alone. Lots of people feel stuck, over the hill, like they have unique and unhelp-able problems.
Everyone else has already suggested getting a therapist; it's a real project to find the person (person, not school of thought) right for you, but worthwhile. If you can learn how to meditate (stick to the traditions imo), many people find therapy + meditation a great one-two punch combo. Maybe the best. A mushroom trip might help.
Thank you for the work you've already started, and best of luck.