I wish I could say there were epiphanies, but it seems more like a gradual decline in my opinion of profit-oriented organisations due to increasing exposure to the shitty things they do under the guise of "it's just business", which of course is rolled out the moment that they want to do something shitty, in contrast to all of the levers of morality and virtue that they pull on to extract more from you as a resource. It repulses me and I guess I've just decided that I refuse to be defined by my utility or lack of, especially to some manipulative entity like that. What should I be defined by, instead? I'm still working it out. But I don't think the idea that I am better or worse human simply because of the degree to which I support profit generation serves anyone but a profit-oriented organisation; seems obvious, but you don't have to look hard to see common ideas that do reduce you to a resource: "work gives your life meaning", "the unemployed are lazy", etc.

The topic reminds me of the red pill, blue pill metaphor and to lean into it, I'd say I've taken the red pill but I'm still figuring out what reality means for me now. I hope your situation works out for you. Good luck!

Thank you for sharing your story. I'll ponder on that one!